As many of you know, sugar is my drug-of-choice. Dieting is a close second. I can be as addicted to diets as I am to sweets. I know, I’ve seen me do it! I thought that when I lost weight my life would be perfect. I would be successful, my relationships would flourish, my mood would improve, yada yada yada.
In that state of denial, I spent most of my life in illusion. The illusion that someday I would wake up thin. Someday I would find the magic pill, diet, ingredient, prayer that would fix it once and for all. Someday I would wake up different. Those fantasy states were always fueled with a binge…and “someday” never came.
Yes, I lost weight. Repeatedly. And without my numbing agent (sugar), life hurt like hell. You have heard me say there are worse things than being fat and crazy; you could be thin and crazy instead! What does a person do when what they thought would solve their problem – whether it be a new body, a new man, a new treatment center, or a new job – doesn’t stick? They either go back to what they know works, or they find a new way to medicate.
Here’s a news flash. Relapse is not part of recovery. It is part of addiction. If you find yourself struggling with relapse, you are in the right place! We’re about to uncover what’s really going on with you and help you get past the illusions you have built for protection.
Kim Halsey is re-singled, and sharing how to live dreams without drama.